crawling aqil

alhamdulillah..finally..he crawled yesterday..my other hero is getting bigger so fast..felt that it was just yesterday that i was holding a smaller him in my arms..so today..i would like to share my experience in the process of giving birth..to my little aqil..literally..err because he was quite big when he came out..hehe..

so this would be like the continuation of the admission thingy hehe..

*monday - 1st of June, 4.30 a.m*
i got up early..as usual..because it was hard to sleep soundly when you have the biggest tummy ever..there's the back pain..and the little pain here and there in those parts below..did my solat tahajud, solat taubat and solat sunat..and recited the Al-Quran..Alhamdulillah..i felt scared but was at ease and felt peaceful everytime i prayed to Allah s.w.t. Amin..today is IT. Before this..during my final trimester..i've always been scared..anticipating the pain..what would it feel like..how long do i get to experience the pain before my baby comes out..but to day..i knew that i'll be feeling the pain..and i would see the baby..it's only the matter of how long will i be in pain..and how would i deliver the baby..would it be a normal one..or needed extra help or even an operation huhu..

*7.00 a.m*
i walked around the house..here and there..and did a little laundry..washing a few more baby's clothes which ayuni just brought back home yesterday..moktok and abang were watching the TV..mak and ayah went out and i couldn't remember where they went to..ayuni and aiman were still sleeping i think..and that morning.,.i didn't talk as much as i used to..did some ironing..packing things up and checking up once again..and i sat down.feeling my heart beat.going faster.

*7.45 a.m*
it was time..i hugged and kissed maktok..felt like crying huhu..moktok was teary eyed but didn't cry..mak and abang went with me first..adik2 and ayah went later..i'm still quite quiet on the way huhu..

*8 something a.m*
arrived at the medical centre..registered and a nurse guided us up to my room huhu..getting into the room gave a me a funny feeling..there was already breakfast on the bed..the aircond and the tv was on..the nurse asked whether i wanted to eat anything else or needed other things..i said thank you and got on the bed..huhu..

*9 something a.m*
it grew very 'happening' now in the room..my brother and sister and abang were chatting about things which i could not remember..huhu..i joined their conversation here and there..and then the doctor came..'wan, it's time to insert the inducing medicine..huhu..she asked a nurse to pull the curtains..asked me to lie down and pulled my kain up..she put on her gloves..and began 'going into it'..huhu..and yes..it hurts..sakit and sengal huhu..i nearly wet my eyes..but i kept telling myself this is nothing..it's gonna hurt much more later..so i just smiled and thanked here when she was done..and the nurss strapped a mechanical item on my tummy and there's a large
 machine by my side..it was something to detect my contractions and a mchine which was producing a loud sound was used to listen to my baby's heart beat..so the loud sound was my baby's heart beating..beautiful..
then ayah had something to be done in the college..and mak and adik mea went to the airport to fetch my suna and her kids..and i was left with my cool abang and bubbly ayuni..and then we ordered McD..and talked..and watch the tele and yet there was no pain..langsung takde kesan ke ubat tu..ish..

*12 something p.m*
two nurses came in to check whether i'd experienced any contractions..and the reading was takde sangat..
Nurse 1: la..kenape takde contraction langsung ni..
Nurse 2: Biarlah..tekde lah patient ni nak sakit..kalau tidak kesian die sakit..
Nurse 1: La..biarla patient sakit..cepat sikit beranak..
huhu..i giggled listening to them..and by this time i was talking a lot as usual..my abang kept taking pictures of me..mase nak lunch nak suap nasi (makan tetap berselera ya) pun die nak amik gambar..adeh..stress sedikit haha..

*2.30 p.m*
the doctor came to check..my uterus tak terbukak sangat..still 2 cm macam mula2 tadi..so..she decided to insert another capsule..and once again the pain was there..adui..huhu..

*5 something p.m*
And unexpectedly i still was not experiencing any pain..none..and the contractions..although ade yang mild tapi tak sakit huhu..the doctor came in once again..she checked the 'opening' and accidentally she poked something and my air ketuban came out like..err macam orang cuah air dari baldi..swushhhhh..and at the same time 'ngappppp' came the first contraction and i was like ouchh..is that what i think that is??a part of me was like yeay!!i'm on my way to see my baby hehe..and yes..it was painful..it came and went between 3 minutes..and at that moment..between the duration yang tak sakit tu..i can still joke around haha..sampai mak ayah adik2 and abang sume macam..biar betul kaklong ni haha..

to be continued...

a new start

 it has been a while..my life has been progressing a bit..

with a new man in my life..hehe..

my darling aqil..

will try posting updates about me..hu..

*hugs*

the 'admission'

earlier tonight..
went to see the doctor again..
it was supposed to be an afternoon appointment..
but she had a delivery case..
so we went later which is tonight..
at the end..i was given 'the letter'..
i am to be admitted to the hospital early in the morning..
on the 1st of June if my baby is not coming out until the day itself..
the doctor said the induce thingy will not hurt that much as it is time for the baby to come out..
i'll only experience the same hurt like other mothers experiencing normal births..
but this time..i get to expect that the pain of contractions will come..
right now..at this time..before 'd day'..the pain will be a suprise because i do not have the idea when it will 'attack' me..
but on the 1st of june..i will know that it is time..
huhu..talking about the pros and cons..
Ya Allah..permudahkanlah proses kelahiran anakku ini..
my dearests sweets..pary for me..
i love you all..

waiting for labor..

last night until today..there is this pain..it keeps going on and on in my tummy..huhu..tapi baby taknak kuar jugak..

i keep on reading the 'what to expect when you're expecting' book..the chapter on what to expect when you are finally near labor..i read the lines almost everyday..to keep in mind that the 'labor journey' will not be easy..how the contractions will increase until my baby finally comes out..not forgetting the 'teran meneran' part..and the episiotomy where the 'gate' for the baby will be cut to make it easier for the baby to come out..ya Allah..that really is scary..huhu..and the placenta part..and the postpartum that i'll be going through after the baby finally comes out..huhu..takut..

and i miss my other half aka my soulmate aka my husband aka my best friend aka my protector...
i love you abang..

cupcake day..

i've put another post before putting the 'another day'..but where did it go??macam pengenalan kepada the starting of my blog entries..lame betul tak tulis ape2..huhu..disebabkan ingin mengisi mase lapang sambil menunggu hari..i decided to start blogging again..huhu..penin penin..makin lame akin lembab aje rase otak ni..tak ter catch up dengan all these technologies..huhu..

this afternoon..the usual pain on my abdomen came again..i call it as the 'contraction practise'..memang sakit sangat sampai tak boleh nak berjalan berdiri atau tunduk..when the pain reduced sekejap..i made these nigella's cupcakes untuk lupekan tentang kesakitan tu although the pain is there menyucuk nyucuk huhu..mak said kaklong ni dah tau sakit tak larat nak buat jugak..' ayah seperti biase 'pergi rehatlah..' i am just tired of sitting around doing nothing..itu yang gagahkan diri jugak..chewwah..nak ajar diri jadi kuatlah kononnye..the real pain nanti tak taulah dapat tahan ke tidak..huhu..back to my cupcakes..despite the fact that i have diabetes..i already ate three out of 12 of them..huhu..biar betul adlina..takpelah..berserah pada Allah..huhu..

anyway..there are a lot of recipes yang interesting untuk kite try out..yang we can alter according to our taste..huhu..and as for today..i made only 12 cupcakes or muffins and right now i am so tired..macam buat gulai kawah aje rase letih ni..huhu..wah..bile lah my baby nak keluar ni..huhu..

another day..

went for a register for the delivery of my baby this evening with ayah..(abang..i miss you..) huhu..met the doctor who will be in charged of my baby and i during labor..huhu..she's a pleasant person..seemed to understand how i am feeling huhu..

my baby..
2.87 kg..you'll grow larger by next week..but don't grow too large okay sayang..huhu..
your head is going down..
your body is fully grown in ibu's 'tummy'..
you're so active that it really hurts inside when you do your thing..i don't know..it's no more hiccups or coughing..but sometimes when you go like hard on one side of my tummy..i could feel your buttocks i think haha..
okay okay..ibu won't tell no more..i'll be reading you a new story after this okay..you'll be hearing a lot more than just my silly laughs..
i love you baby..

okay..those notes are for my darling baby..huhu..suddenly i seem to forget what i intended to write about for this entry..never mind..pregnant women kadang2 memang kucar kacir sikit pemikiran huhu..anyway..today and even for the past few days..my ayah kept telling me..(you'd notice that i've talked about my ayah a lot because since coming back home for the delivery ayah is the person who is with me most of the time..because ayah dah pencen..ayah cume pegi college when he has classes..huhu..so he's like my gurdian lah..huhu..) okay..back to what ayah has been telling me..

eii macam baru aje kaklong kecik2 ayah pimpin..
eii macam baru aje ayah nampak kaklong comel je pakai baju kurung cotton..tinggi ni aje..(gesturing his hand to show my height at about the height of his leg)..
now you're becoming a mother..
cepatnye mase kan kaklong..

yesterday he brought me out..'lame sgt kaklong terperuk kat rumah..jom keluar'..and then we stopped by a kedai called CPT jalan pekeliling..

today after meeting the doctor we stopped by a kopitiam and our conversation was moctly on how my childhood days were..and how i've grown..and how time moves so fast..

huhu..sebak pulak rase..

a birthday of mine

it's my birthday..

what i love the most about birthdays is that..

i would be getting beautiful words..from those whom i love so much..

i do get soothing words from them on normal days..

but the words ..especially the phrase 'i love you'..on my birthday..really made my day..

i need no presents..i need just the thoughtful words of the people i love..

thank you all..

i love you so much..

*moi family*

*moi girlfriends*

*moi friends*

a cupcake for all my beloved..

and a box of roses..full of love..