exam mode makes me boring huhu

hihi..boring sampai tahap ape..padahal keje banyak lagi yang tertunggak wuwu..

anyway..this final hour of school..i have decided to devote myself only to my pinky lappy..

had a great chit chat with the girls last night (but chicky did go to bed earlier than the two of us..hihi and papee_wished you were here!))..talked to my darling beep sampai midnight and after that susah dah kami nak lelap huhu..talked about love..life..friends..people..sampai at one point we realized how serious our topic of conversation was haha..blame our mouths yang tak berhenti bercakap pot pet..

as i lay down on the bed unable to doze straight off..looking at my little prince who is growing up ever so fast..i felt really blessed to have these few people around me..my best friends..whoa..i wonder..who else is working in another state (not your hometown) and at the same time you have your bestfriends working in the same state as you are?your bestfriends for life from the university huhu..wah..i love them and the others (you know who you are) that i kept telling myself (and sometimes to my sister) how lucky i am to be able to be gifted as a person with all these good kind hearted people?..even my sister also said 'bertuah kaklong ada kawan2 bestfriends macam tu..'..

i guess i am lucky..very lucky..and i pray that our friendship+sisterlyhood(do we have this word?) will remain until the day i die..amin..

little aqil: ibu pray aqil jugak akan ade this one bunch of beautiful people like i have right now as your bestfriends one day..hihi..

this is what happens when a teacher is totally bored..and..emm..don't mind the serabai me hehe..

the eye that made me cried

before his eye got swollen

huhu..aqil sakit mata..ketumbit or i don't know..went to syai's since friday tapi tutup until yesterday..huhu..ni dok membengkak lagi..

sian my baby..

i cried the whole morning just by looking at the eye..sedih..

and as for tomorrow..mr. H will be going away to kuantan for three days..isk isk..

i will be left with aqil and his swollen eye..

the eye that hurts me a lot..

huhu..

imagine wiiii

am at school..

training the little ones..

for performing a choir..for hari guru..

on a glee song..

imagine..

loving it..

alhamdulillah

am feeling better today.

had homemade banana cake for breakfast (there goes my so called oaty brekie)

gulpe down freshly squeezed orange juice and lotsa plain water yesterday.

feeling good..

*Mr. H has to go away for three days next week..adoi..will be alone with little aqil*

*i am so not comfortable*

am havin a stuffed nose.

flu.

hopefully no fever.

can't really breath.

*sigh*

*praying that my aqil will not be affected*

babies are the best gifts

a picture of my darling after bathing and putting on his clothes..rambut belum sikat..

my besties's blog was all about her newborn niece and how she adores and misses  her 24/7..i do understand that feeling..it is the most beautiful feeling..and yes..it will be more beautiful and meaningful if we have one of our own..
*your time will come sayang..and i am sure you'll be a great mother* hugs..

as for my aqil..about two more weeks to go and he'll be one year..reaching his toddler years..and up until now..there's the feeling of guilt..regret..sad..because the one thing that i wish i could do is be with him take good care of him nurture him teach him things day and night..i don't want to work..i want to stay with him..be there for him..so that he doesn't have to be with other people other than his own mother..

*i guess mr. Ridzuan has to do something to get him to be a millionaire so that i do not have to work..muahaha*

-which is impossible-

ibu loves you aqil..so much..

on the way out to celebrate mother's day hihi..

every moment spent with you is treasured..

aqil going one year...

gosh..time flies really fast isn't it..

wondering whether after all this while..reaching one year..have i been a good mother to him..implementing good values..showing appropriate emotions..good examples of characters and behaviours..

there's so many things to think about..hopefully Allah has given him a good mother..what i have..hopefully he'll be proud of..one day..when he understands things..

my aqil now..

• can wave bye bye (when told to do so or when other people wave at him he'll wave back' and at the same time utters 'bah bah' while waving
• loves to hug and kiss me..
• has a tooth..only one tooth! (which worries me in a way hu..planning to see his birth doctor when going back to kb later)..
• loves to eat..
• everytime i'm putting him to bed..he would want to play with my face before he dozes off..this particular moment i love so much because it's like our 'us time' away from any noise and etc..when he is well asleep then  i'll put him into his bed..
• loves 'talking' and giggling to his two giant charts of body parts and nouns which i've pasted onto the wall..
• apart from playing with his favourite toys..he now loves to read books in his own way!which is by taking the books off the rack..spreading each of it here and there..opening each book..each page..pointing and mumbling to himself..and whenever i want to join him..he'll laugh and kiss me and poke the book onto my forehead..okay..i wonder what is the message..huhu..and it hurts..
• he crawls and pick up things so fast!i wonder where he gets the energy from..
• his sleeping pattern is more consistent..
• his hair has never been so gorgeous!
• loves to watch and listen to 'baa baa blacksheep'..and everytime he sees the video or hear the song..he'll go ba ba too..and nobody can block his view on the screen..or he'll push your head away like you're as tiny as a cat's head haha..
• i'm a GLEEK so i've as the husband to download GLEE songs with the lyrics and i so love to sing them while carrying aqil on me..and while i sing to the song..he'll sing too in his own way hi hi..love to do this when aqil's feeling restless or etc..he'll brighten up right away..
• 'PEEKABOO' is his favourite and he will laugh his heart out when we play the game..or our version of 'HIDE and SEEK'..which we started to play last week..this i know will be his all time favourite game too..woohooo..

i guess having a baby can sometimes or..for me..most of the time brings out the baby or childish side of me..the darling husband of mine would always laugh at me or say 'Sayang..ya Allah..' haha...i love you dear..

this parenthood..has taught us..a lot of things..and yes..being a parent also means an ongoing learning experience for both of us..and apart of all the tears..laughters..smiles..exchanging glances between us..looking at how grown our aqil is..and how fast he is growing..we thank Allah..for all his blessings..Alhamdulillah..

each bubble presents all the feelings we'll encounter..they'll come and they'll go..

some will go in a blink of an eye..and some will last a little longer..but still..they'll be gone..

thank you Allah for giving us our aqil..and may he be a good muslim and a good human being..

yes..enjoy every moment that we have with each other..and never forget Allah..amin..