aqil is one year old!

aqil at the age of one year old.

*he can walk.finally!(although he'll go wobbly here and there to the right and to the left haha)
*when i teased him by being mad at something he did he'll make a sad face
*when he is playing with his toys with me by his side, whenever i turn somewhere else like to the TV while imitating his utterances he'll notice that i wasn't looking at him and he'll pull and tug my shirt wanting me to concentrate only on him
*more syllables day by day!which i adore so much huhu.
*this morning (before going to work and he's slightly cheerful but very 'tired looking' because of the fever (owh gosh i hope you are doing okay at home with ayah now)..i said (like i always say everyday) 'who is muhammad aqil please raise up your hand' he held both of his hands up!and i was speechless and gave him some kisses on his face!!excited!
*another tooth is coming up
*adores his atuk so much
*whenever he sees me or my husband preparing to perform our solat he'll go 'Aabbaaahh'..just like everytime we say Allahuakbar to show him that we are gonna do our prayers he'll go 'Aabbaaahh'..Alhamdulillah..can't wait to teach you on how to recite the Al-quran and perform your solat and puasa..amin..and when my husband puts a 'kopiah' on his head he'll act and move his body as if sedang bertasbih macam tu hihi..we adore this act so much!!
*loves to play peekaboo.whenever he gets hold of a cloth he'll start 'peekabooing'..
*one thing that does not change much - he loves being hugged and kissed..and tickled..he'll laugh his heart out..

i guess this is just the cycle of life..no one gets the chance of going back to any stage of life (except in movies)..as a mother i could only watch my son grows and achieves things major or minor (only major for me!all of them!)..and i am happy..happy..(only a little tiny bit of..sadness..)i just missed him being a baby who only loves to be cradled in my arms..not knowing to do anything just yet..those were the days and i wished i would treasure those moments more!

the playful him

to note: there is no more of the ribena drink inside..am still practicing less or no sugar at all for my aqil

*happy birthday aqil*


~ibu and ayah love you so much~

blogging matters

i read an article from a beloved junior back when we were in zainab..i love reading her blog as i could learn so much on motherhood and gained knowledge from her perspectives of life..(thank you iva)..and her latest entry was on blogging matters..and the entry triggered some thoughts and i began to re evaluate the reasons why i first decided to go blogging..actively..

i first created the blog back in 2008..and then i stopped blogging as i do not really have the urge to write and there seemed to be no reason why i should be writing entries..that was back then..

and then i had aqil..i started to feel like i've to write the experience that i had and am going through day by day with my baby..the experiences written were and will be based on true events on what motherhood is..i wrote each entry with the thought of wanting others to at least learn something and gain a little knowledge..and for other entries which relate to my life are for the sake of enhancing my writing skills(you know how it is teaching in a rural school where i do not have much opportunities to enhance my skills) and for family and friends who are living far to get updates about my life..and i know they really appreciate each entry..(facebook for me can sometimes be to revealing so now i've decided to go low profile huhu)..

i wrote each of the entry with no thoughts of bragging or showing off what i have in life at all..i wrote it with a sincere heart..for the sake of capturing events in my life which i want to treasure for the rest of my life and i can always go back and read it up anytime (where and when there is internet connection)..yes we can of course treasure moments in scrapbooks or diaries but yes those are more personal..i would not want to show it off to people just like that..so blogging is like the most appropriate medium..

as quoted from iva - people should be reading one's blog with a positive mind- i totally agree..look at things in a positive way..why should you be implementing negativity in your minds while reading one's blog..you do not have the idea of what was in the writer's mind while he or she is writing (unless the person is clearly seen as being a bragger all the way-and i'm sure there are only a few of this type)..

i tend to receive a bunch of thanks from family and friends who appreciate my entries because they get to learn some things and gain a few thoughts here and there and get to know what was happening inside my life because they have not met me for quite some times.

so..if i tend to be posting entries that lead to people to be thinking that i am such a show off, i'd like to apologize but sincerely..those entries are written with modesty and with a thought of 'that's just some parts and parcels of my life-enjoy reading and hopefully you gained something or learned something from a simple me'.

i really have nothing much to be showing off actually. i am not that wealthy or living a life fabulously in some urban or posh neighborhood having fantastic jobs or etc.i am a simple me and i love being me (except for the fact that i'm FAT) and i love my family and friends so much and sometimes the entries are just rightfully dedicated to them.

one of the best weekend!!

fuh..enjoyed ourselves so much when in kl..lots of laughters and smiles with each other..mak and ayah especially huhu..can't wait to be at home for this coming 2 weeks school holiday!

aqil just ca't get enough of his atuk..sampai taknak dengan ibu ayah nenek mama sume2..hmm..sudah pandai ya muhammad aqil..(terasa sedikit huhu)..

anyway..reached home at about 5 and we got so excited of putting up aqil's corner that we kind of threw all of the things (including our bags and etc) on the floor and start pushing and moving furnitures here and there and pasang all the things from IKEA and taaadaaaaa!!we were done within an hour hehe..and the rest (mopping..sapu and lap sini sana) are left for me huhu..but anyway..thank you dearest husband for understanding my IKEA passion woohooo...!

WEEKEND = great company of beautiful people+good food+fabulous items(not clothes because i don't fancy my size nowadays haha)+laughters and even tears(happy tears for ayuni's convo).

*ayuni : am not gonna reveal the corner..wait till you come here on friday okay...let it be a suprise!!hehe..love you*

IKEA vs GRADUATION DAY+family time=contentment+ultimate glee

one of the main reasons (actually there's 3) us coming to kl was to get things to set up a special corner for muhammad aqil (and for ibu sikit hihi)..and this morning we went to IKEA and the mission was accomplished (although i didn't get to buy the medium sized Billy bookcase because it was out of stock so we went for a back up book rack huhu)..we managed to buy a few things and we cannot wait to set things up back home wiiiii!!!!!

okay so..truth be told..IKEA made me to be forgetting that the main event here is ayuni's CONVO!!that was the main reason why mak and ayah flew over here and even took a day off on Sunday (plus Monday for dear ayah-Gosh we miss you guys so much *especially aqil towards his atuk*)..and yes..i even forgot that i need to buy her a bouquet of flowers!!Gosh..how bad am I as a sister huhu..so this evening went for flower hunting with dearest su(the best auntie in the world!) around bangi (but found none) and later end up in a nice shop just near su's place in kajang..and i spent quite a while in deciding which flower to choose and decided myself on what thype and pattern of bouquet i wanted huhu..and what made me proud was that the aunty kept telling me 'wah..never people asked me to do this pattern for graduation bouquet..this is so special..i like it i love it my self..' huhu..i picked the colour for the papers and the flower arrangements and the ribbon..the auntie loved it so much that she gave me extra roses (she added 7 more for free!!) and gave a layer of gorgeous net cloth as the final touch for free!!..yes..a second 'free'!haha..thank you so much auntie..and here is the product tadaaaa!!!!

 

the lower part..

the gorgoeous layers of ruffled white fabric+paper

wanted the white 'snow flaked' like flowers to go around the roses but there were none of those

 

the whole bouquet..and yes..AYUNI loved and is loving it soo MUCHO MUCHO~

ahh..and tonight we celebrated fairuz's birthday with a lovely cake...

 

the pretty birthday girl

snapshot one before the cutting of cake with darling aqil

snapshot 2 with the happy babies
(okay enough with the mouth adlina)

*thank you Allah for giving us the time to be spent together..really wish aizuddin and aiman were here with us..love you guys muah!*

a reading and playing corner for my aqil

i am setting up a special corner for my special aqil as a gift for him for his first birthday..he's becoming a toddler!!wah..time flies so fast huhu..he loves to read books and play with his toys so i'm gonna work things out with darling husband to suprise our aqil!!aqil akan terexcited sambil menari2 and tergelak2 hihi..am soo excited..huhu..praying that this dream of mine will come true..huhu...

*am excited to be going to kl for ayuni's convo and a get together with the family..
especially mak and ayah!!wiiii*

baby stuff

A bestie of mind asked me a few things on preparing for her newborn..so i might as well post it here so that she can refer to the very long list anytime..so here goes ‘gegurl’..




Baby clothes

My husband and I were very excited in buying clothes for aqil..we felt like buying everything that our baby should be needing..lots and lots of comfortable clothes..huhu..but a few of our close family members reminded us not to be too ambitious huhu..so actually..we only need to buy a few newborn suits..maybe 4 to 6 sets..buy more 3 to 6 month old baby clothes..and do keep in mind that the baby will be receiving more clothes when he or she is born..as presents from family and friends..aqil got more that 10 sets of clothes during his kenduri cukur jambul and aqiqah..and not to forget the mittens and botties..as for me..i bought quite a lot of them and had gotten quite a few too..

So; to summarize-

Newborn clothes : 4 to 6 sets

3-6 months : 3 to 5 sets

‘Barut perut’, lampin, towels

One funny thing about the ‘barut perut’. Huhu..actually..it is in our tradition that babies should be wearing the barut perut as soon as he or she is born into this world. Like my maktok said ‘takut masuk angin..kembung perut’ and etc. I remember one time when mak and darling husband brought aqil to see his paediatrician to check for his level of ‘kekuningan’ huhu..the doctor asked my mother ‘why did you have to put on this barut perut?’ so my mother told him about how that was the way things go for newborns..back since she herself had us..so..the doctor answered ‘i’m sorry but i want this thing to be taken off..angin tak masuk ikut pusat..pusat takde lubang..kalau angin nak masuk pun..angin boleh tembusi kain barut ni..babies should be wearing diapers only..’ adeh..memang kalah with his explanation..balik rumah cuba tak pakai barut..and yess..my son kembung sekejap..menangis tak selesa..kebetulan atau tak..i don’t know..huhu.. so..we as Malay mothers..let’s just follow the ‘rule’ hehe..and actually..i didn’t make any new barut perut as i was using my own barut perut when i was a baby..yes..my mom tempah khas and it was still in the best condition after 26 years!!kain putih bersih takde tompok2 or whatsoever..i was really impressed and touched huhu..and kain lampin..i bought a few just in case..and i used it for bathing the baby..before b athing..after i took his clothes and diapers off i would wrap him in kain lampin and took it off when bathing him..after bathing only i wrapped him in the towel..

So: to summarize-

‘barut perut’ : 5 to 10 pieces (bare in mind that during the day or night you may have to change the barut perut quite a few times especially when the baby mengalami ‘kebocoran’ dalam dua keadaan:pupi&wiwi..hihi)

Lampin : 5 pieces or one set

Towel : 2 to three (these are to washed selang two days macam tu after being used..huhu..babies need good hygiene!

Milk Bottles

The amount : well, basically..we’ll need two..one of the medium size (for milk) and another the smallest in size (for plain water)..two is enough especially when you are brestfeeding..but if you cannot provide enough breast milk for your baby..have two bottles for formula milk..as for me..i had quite a few as i asked my sister who was in the uk to buy some..and i also bought some here..huhu..but basically..as a start..two or three is enough..

Breast pumping

Okay..this is actually one of the things that i quite regret..we did bought a breast pump..but not a good one..one reason that my milk got dried out quickly was because i went to my induction course when aqil was 4 months old..and for me..if i had a good breast pump set i’d be able to pump my milk in the right way and my milk won’t dry up..so..for all mummies to be..buy good sets of breast pump machine huhu..insyaAllah..for my next baby..i will buy good ones..they even have milk bottles, bags, mini freezer and containers in one set together with the pump..

Brands for the above

For bottle..i so love AVENT bottles because of the big surface size where it is easy for you to scoop in the powdered milk..and the bottle susah nak jadi keruh..if you buy a set you will get two small sized and two large sized bottles including the bottle brush and a few nipples..die punye nipples banyak jenis untuk disesuaikan dengan umur and keadaan baby kita..it is up to us to suit them according to our baby..like my aqil..i am using nipple number two..if number 3 or 4 terlalu laju pengaliran susu for him..huhu..but always be reminded..mother’s milk is the best!!huhu..(my heart ache when thinking of my ‘disability’..i’m gonna do better for my other kids insyaAllah..)..and there’s also Tommy Tippee..etc..and if you are using brands like anakku ke pureen ke please buy a different type of putting untuk botol susu tu for newborns..the brand is PIGEON where milk or water will only come out if it is sucked by the baby..this is to elakkan baby tersedak which is very dangerous for newborns huhu..for breast pump ade Medela, Avent pun ade...make the best choice okay..tak rugi..it can be used for a long duration of time..

Cloth Diaper vs disposable Diapers..

Ini satu lagi benda yang i regretted huhu..i only found out about cloth diapers several months after i have given birth to aqil..so now..at this juncture of time..i am buying the CDs for my aqil..just bought two and the inserts from an online shop..CDs are more environmental and they can save cost untuk jangka masa panjang huhu..they are so awesome!!!so mommies to be..i suggest that you go for CDs..you will be pregnant for 9 months so buy a CD per month and you’ll have enough CD by the time you have your baby..no need to buy disposable diapers anymore!!Visit lunatots or other sites which offers the best price for cloth diapers!

Baby cot

Well..emm..i bought one and it can be turned into a single bed (the left and right panel can be taken off) when the our baby can sleep on his own without falling off the bed. and it can be used at two levels..mase baby kecik2 boleh guna level yang paling atas..when our baby dah pandai panjat2 sume lower down to level yang paling bawah..for safety..Some people does not like to use cots as they prefer to sleep with their babies on their bed..i used to sleep with my aqil on the bed and my husband on another bed when but only until he was like 6 months macam tu..and then i let him sleep in his cot without no pillows. It is not advisable to put pillows for babies not until they reach the age of two. Now and then aqil will get up at night for his milk and since he handles and holds his bottle brilliantly by himself since a few months back..i would just wait until he finishes the milk and gets back to sleep. And lately i’ve been telling my husband that i wanted to take off the panels and train aqil to sleep on his single bed..unfortunately he said that aqil’s a baby..no..no..bukan masanya lagi..nanti jatuh tergoleh..jatuh tingkap macam baby dalam berita..(walaupun our house satu tingkat dan window tinggi dari paras lantan dan ada grill)..bla bla..he’ll go on and on and i surrender..adeh..kate adventurous =p

my aqil's cot from IKEA

Baby changing table

Yes..!for my next baby..i will buy a changing table..why and why and why...?because it hurts so much when changing your baby’s diaper or putting his or her clothes after bathing time..my back hurts so much kalau terbongkok aje sambil duduk..so..buy one for your own comfort..i started taking care of my baby masa dalam pantang lagi so these things penting untuk our body in the future..huhu..IKEA has a good one..

Baby stroller & Baby car seat & Baby sling

All of the above is a must for me..some people prefer the baby sling than the baby stroller..well to be truthful..i find both equally useful for me..i will use them according to suitability..and the baby seat plays a great role..travelling back and forth from Pahang to Kelantan to Kedah to Pahang again..aqil can sleep for 4 hours straight on his car seat when we are travelling..there is a wide range of brands that you can choose from..i planned to buy a ‘so cool and smart’ stroller for aqil but didn’t make it a dream come true as i had one as a baby gift..i bought the sling (which i prefer most of the time) in an online shop..and the car seat at a store here in Malaysia..easy peasy..

whoaa...quite a long list hihi..i learn a lot of things from my first baby..hopefully i can do better for my second one..huhu..

*ibu loves you aqil*

dining out with the girls

have put the little one to sleep..

am going out with my girlfriends..

middle earth here we come....!

the three of us

hehe..my only husband is back..owh..
on the day that he got back..only i realized..
how much i missed him..
and our aqil missed him too i guess..
tak berenggang dengan ayahnya..

the ting tong us

our one and only apple of our eyes..

*i love you both*

a lovely time with the girls

with my one and only along

along again

la la la

with my dearest afzan

my only beep

with dearest nurul

kami merasmikan katil dulu before pengantin hihi

with mcyan aka my beloved besan

papee sayang!!

 a sexy pose

a happy pose

a glee pose

the never ending pose

i've wanting to upload the pictures from my aifa's wedding dah lame..tapi tak terupload..so sekarang ni dalam mood rindukan my grilfriends and the time spent with them..i'd like to upload the pictures that i have taken with some of my girlfriends..yang lain tak dapat mengattendkan diri..hihi..but you guys are terribly missed okay..

exam mode makes me boring huhu

hihi..boring sampai tahap ape..padahal keje banyak lagi yang tertunggak wuwu..

anyway..this final hour of school..i have decided to devote myself only to my pinky lappy..

had a great chit chat with the girls last night (but chicky did go to bed earlier than the two of us..hihi and papee_wished you were here!))..talked to my darling beep sampai midnight and after that susah dah kami nak lelap huhu..talked about love..life..friends..people..sampai at one point we realized how serious our topic of conversation was haha..blame our mouths yang tak berhenti bercakap pot pet..

as i lay down on the bed unable to doze straight off..looking at my little prince who is growing up ever so fast..i felt really blessed to have these few people around me..my best friends..whoa..i wonder..who else is working in another state (not your hometown) and at the same time you have your bestfriends working in the same state as you are?your bestfriends for life from the university huhu..wah..i love them and the others (you know who you are) that i kept telling myself (and sometimes to my sister) how lucky i am to be able to be gifted as a person with all these good kind hearted people?..even my sister also said 'bertuah kaklong ada kawan2 bestfriends macam tu..'..

i guess i am lucky..very lucky..and i pray that our friendship+sisterlyhood(do we have this word?) will remain until the day i die..amin..

little aqil: ibu pray aqil jugak akan ade this one bunch of beautiful people like i have right now as your bestfriends one day..hihi..

this is what happens when a teacher is totally bored..and..emm..don't mind the serabai me hehe..

the eye that made me cried

before his eye got swollen

huhu..aqil sakit mata..ketumbit or i don't know..went to syai's since friday tapi tutup until yesterday..huhu..ni dok membengkak lagi..

sian my baby..

i cried the whole morning just by looking at the eye..sedih..

and as for tomorrow..mr. H will be going away to kuantan for three days..isk isk..

i will be left with aqil and his swollen eye..

the eye that hurts me a lot..

huhu..

imagine wiiii

am at school..

training the little ones..

for performing a choir..for hari guru..

on a glee song..

imagine..

loving it..

alhamdulillah

am feeling better today.

had homemade banana cake for breakfast (there goes my so called oaty brekie)

gulpe down freshly squeezed orange juice and lotsa plain water yesterday.

feeling good..

*Mr. H has to go away for three days next week..adoi..will be alone with little aqil*

*i am so not comfortable*

am havin a stuffed nose.

flu.

hopefully no fever.

can't really breath.

*sigh*

*praying that my aqil will not be affected*

babies are the best gifts

a picture of my darling after bathing and putting on his clothes..rambut belum sikat..

my besties's blog was all about her newborn niece and how she adores and misses  her 24/7..i do understand that feeling..it is the most beautiful feeling..and yes..it will be more beautiful and meaningful if we have one of our own..
*your time will come sayang..and i am sure you'll be a great mother* hugs..

as for my aqil..about two more weeks to go and he'll be one year..reaching his toddler years..and up until now..there's the feeling of guilt..regret..sad..because the one thing that i wish i could do is be with him take good care of him nurture him teach him things day and night..i don't want to work..i want to stay with him..be there for him..so that he doesn't have to be with other people other than his own mother..

*i guess mr. Ridzuan has to do something to get him to be a millionaire so that i do not have to work..muahaha*

-which is impossible-

ibu loves you aqil..so much..

on the way out to celebrate mother's day hihi..

every moment spent with you is treasured..

aqil going one year...

gosh..time flies really fast isn't it..

wondering whether after all this while..reaching one year..have i been a good mother to him..implementing good values..showing appropriate emotions..good examples of characters and behaviours..

there's so many things to think about..hopefully Allah has given him a good mother..what i have..hopefully he'll be proud of..one day..when he understands things..

my aqil now..

• can wave bye bye (when told to do so or when other people wave at him he'll wave back' and at the same time utters 'bah bah' while waving
• loves to hug and kiss me..
• has a tooth..only one tooth! (which worries me in a way hu..planning to see his birth doctor when going back to kb later)..
• loves to eat..
• everytime i'm putting him to bed..he would want to play with my face before he dozes off..this particular moment i love so much because it's like our 'us time' away from any noise and etc..when he is well asleep then  i'll put him into his bed..
• loves 'talking' and giggling to his two giant charts of body parts and nouns which i've pasted onto the wall..
• apart from playing with his favourite toys..he now loves to read books in his own way!which is by taking the books off the rack..spreading each of it here and there..opening each book..each page..pointing and mumbling to himself..and whenever i want to join him..he'll laugh and kiss me and poke the book onto my forehead..okay..i wonder what is the message..huhu..and it hurts..
• he crawls and pick up things so fast!i wonder where he gets the energy from..
• his sleeping pattern is more consistent..
• his hair has never been so gorgeous!
• loves to watch and listen to 'baa baa blacksheep'..and everytime he sees the video or hear the song..he'll go ba ba too..and nobody can block his view on the screen..or he'll push your head away like you're as tiny as a cat's head haha..
• i'm a GLEEK so i've as the husband to download GLEE songs with the lyrics and i so love to sing them while carrying aqil on me..and while i sing to the song..he'll sing too in his own way hi hi..love to do this when aqil's feeling restless or etc..he'll brighten up right away..
• 'PEEKABOO' is his favourite and he will laugh his heart out when we play the game..or our version of 'HIDE and SEEK'..which we started to play last week..this i know will be his all time favourite game too..woohooo..

i guess having a baby can sometimes or..for me..most of the time brings out the baby or childish side of me..the darling husband of mine would always laugh at me or say 'Sayang..ya Allah..' haha...i love you dear..

this parenthood..has taught us..a lot of things..and yes..being a parent also means an ongoing learning experience for both of us..and apart of all the tears..laughters..smiles..exchanging glances between us..looking at how grown our aqil is..and how fast he is growing..we thank Allah..for all his blessings..Alhamdulillah..

each bubble presents all the feelings we'll encounter..they'll come and they'll go..

some will go in a blink of an eye..and some will last a little longer..but still..they'll be gone..

thank you Allah for giving us our aqil..and may he be a good muslim and a good human being..

yes..enjoy every moment that we have with each other..and never forget Allah..amin..